Didnt I say you were grounded
i leave for canada in the morning at like 4 am with my best friend and her family for 3 1/2 weeks and i am so freaking stoked but at the same time i am going to miss my boyfriend a WHOLE LOT this is weird.
i never share personal things on here anymore.
sorry bout that.
i still love all of you OG tumblr babies though. text me i misss youuuuuu!
ah, the fourth of july. the day america finally told england “no, dad, i’m throwing away your dream~”
I turn 20 in four days.
I’m retaking a math class in the summer because I failed it in the spring,
& my checking account is overdrawn exactly one hundred fifty-five dollars and eighty-three cents.
I lost my job five months ago because because I stole a coupon, & if you look at my Amazon Wishlist right now,
you’d see Crayola markers listed directly next to a Hitachi Magic Wand — “THE STRONGEST VIBRATOR ON EARTH!”
Ordering pizza on the phone makes my hands shake.
I still doodle the names of boys in the margins of paper.
I chain-smoke Marlboros, but I can never pronounce them correctly to the gas station clerk.
I used to cut out chunks of my heart & whip-stitch them to my sleeves.
Everyone would ask how I could leave the house like that.
I hated myself for getting bloodstains on my favorite shirts.
Now, I’ve cut out my heart & sliced it 52 ways,
dealt them out like a poker game, with
four aces stuffed up my bleached shirtsleeves.
Now, I’m always the winner.
I still find magic in the beach.
I still catch lightning bugs between two cupped palms.
I think that sunsets are the most truthful things on this planet.
My life now
is scored by lazy giggles and the metallic strike of Bic Lighters. It’s a nice thought when
My life then
only left scores on my thighs.
But now it’s June, the heat is crawling down my throat and
illuminating my lungs.
I’m not where I need to be, but I’ve shoved my past out of the way.
And I can’t believe I get to say this but,
I turn 20 in four days."
Thank you muffin!!!!
DO YOU EVER WONDER WHY YOU HAVE SUCH A STRONG URGE TO SQUEEZE THINGS BECAUSE THEY’RE CUTE
there was an article about it and it said there is nothing to satisfy how you feel about the thing being so cute so the natural human urge is to kill it so it will stop being cute